craze bout lemon cheesecake...

Tiresome!

Oh My God!

I so wish to write this down but thing it might just be too PUBLICISED... So i guess i'll just keep it a bit low profiled!

I really think that the idea of being worried or just thinking about something or someone can be really tiresome... This only happens when you miss them like ALOT! yes. that's always the case!

I might have as well given up on something if it was to make me so emotionally stressed and tired out... but everytime i am at the verge of giving up... there will always be something or somebody telling or hinting me not to... and when that happens my torture continue... i mean this id absolutely SERIOUS! it's mental torture... I can't live it anymore!!!

It's real stupid to think of it, but i just can't help it... Because I really want it to be mine and that I can take care and love that thing... But there is just too many things in the way... insecurities and stuff... It's so stupid! the damn thing is i have absolutely no idea of anything and what's going on.... An ignorant fool! They say ignorant is blessed... It is not INDEED!!!! It is torturous! the pain and hurt one can actually feel.... the crazy thoughts burning in one's mind all the time just to mention or be reminded of the specific... TERRIBLE! Awful.... plain awful!

i feel so helpless to it. pains me to think of the negative possbilities of us... everytime i would always feel down after seeing it... not because i don't enjoy the presence, but there is always something ( a small detail) that makes me disappointed... I do like it a lot... alot alot.... but i think it is overstretcing my rubberband life and it seems like breaking anytime....

Stop the killing pain in my mind! Like i say... i think i will soon quit this whole thing... I'm not the kind that will give up on something that easily but it's just totally affecting my life and goals... And i don't want that.. I would be a total retard to have my life ruin!!! So i say my final bye to the specific... and to tell it that i have always liked you but i can never be sure about you... think i won't wanna waste my time and effort anymore!!! so bye. no more... never will i think of you again....

i hope that the time will let me feel less hurt and slowly fade you away....

why is it always that irritating?

I'm like really getting sick and tired sometimes about some stuff.... those things can be the worlds most headache things to deal and handle with.... sometimes i feel like surrendering and give up on it... but it is really a pity to give up on it that easily.... i really dunno what to do. i'm really exhausted... it's physically and emotionally draining me... i would officially have had it soon.... please god help me... direct me... i need help... PLEASE!

Espanol Frenzy...

yup yup yup!

hola amigos! Como Estas? right now i'm like self-teaching spanish... all thanks to my spanish book. Pretty cool i must say to know how to speak spanish! It's such a sexy language to learn... well anyway... i'm still mastering it.... like an amateur in it still, yet a bueno estudian... Heh! :P

have to go now... gracias y adios!

the hectic life to come...

My tretiary school is goona start really soon... and i can see that the chunks of schedule coming up... and stacking really high... i think i'm gonna be really squashed by it... anyway... i gotta really be having loads of sleepless nights in the future.. and it's all in one word-> PROJECT! the list goes on and on blah blah blah... okay i'm out of words now.. not really in a mood to write anymore... so toodles!

to work or not to work...?

i'm like having trouble making a decision if it is better for me to work....

i've got a job and it is like a three months must contract thingy... so it's like gonna be frm jan-mrch! but i'm not sure about the schools i'm going into... if it's a poly i have absolutely fine with it..., but what if i choose a jc? that would just totally crash my work schedule...

what should i do??? headache headache... the working hrs is like crap... 2shifts and the timing is like 9.30am-5.50pm and 1.50pm-10.10pm! is it pure insanity or what!!! that company is a killer... fortunately it is like walking dist frm my hse, or i'll be so dead! *sigh!* i'm still pondering about this problem...

GEEZ.... i just wish i got some professional to help me out! i need like organisation!!! anyway... i'm tired now... going to bed! Toddles!

                                                                           cheers,

                                                                               her royal highness

                                                                                 princess Cheryl

                                                                

yayness

yay... finally i'm writin again!!! in my blog of course!!!

but its too bad that since my older bro squabber wif the com at home...

i'll use the church com...! hey and its not free k!!! in fact i'm rushing while writin this down! stressful sia... opps not suppose to use singlish!!! any ways, i'm here to write that........

                                      " i think cheryl rox!!!"

                                                                                 ha-ness,

                                                             the pwincess... Cheryl here!!!

28/04/2005 => SYF

as you know... my cca is GUITAR ENSEMBLE... So yeah.......

my skool participated in the SYF for us... the guitar gals.... and its sort of like our fist time performing in the Singapore Conference Hall!!! the atmosphere is very tensed and uptight there!!! its a nervous surrounding around you.... SCARY....! but our cca teacher mr toh... he sort of prayed for us...

since its our first time... we are very eager to see how the hall is like... so okay.... it kinda sux big time cuz' we're the last to perform and didn't get to see the other skool performance!!! SO STUPID!!!!

anyways..... mr teoh manage to cancel out fear and nervousness into something positive like calmness and laughters.... its really farnie when he dance about.... lol.... makes me wanna go "haha" again!!!

so the result we got bronze!!! not too bad for a first timer and the only no coach small group...... WE"VE MADE IT!!!!! :) CONGRATS.... YAYNESS!!!! oh yeah... and matt!!! please dun cry anymore.... you are smagging your make-up on my costume lah!!!! lol... :)

i found out another thing too....! mr teoh's former coach.... was actually DICK LEE's father-in-law.... NICE!!!! they were like talkin and laughing.... so happy!!!! we had a great time at the end of the day... though its really tiring!!!! so i wanna conclude something!!!!!

              WE LOVE GUITAR ENSEMBLE AND WE ROX PPL'S SOCKS UP!!!!

                                                                            IN THE HSE OF HAPPINESS

                                                                                    Cheryl Cheng

i walk this lonely street!!!

i'm am in the midst of the week my examination is really around the corner.... its like next week.... 04th may to 12th may 2005?!?

i'm mugging my head in the textbook all day... and i wish i could just take a breath....! cause everything just run so fast.... i could hardly just breathe!!!! its killing me and i need HELP from my Lord!!!

i really hate myself!!! cause i dunno why, it will always be.... before my exams, i will always slack.... i think that i'm like the only gal who never even touch her book at all!!! NOT EVEN A SINGLE ONE!!!! i'm such an idiot......

okay... i'm not an idiot!!! it sounds too harsh...! i'm such a...... playful person!!! yeap that will do.... hey you know what??? i think i should go and REALLY study already!!! gotta go now!!! bye bye!!!!!!! :)

                                                              the sweetest girl you will ever met!!!

                                                                                     Cheryl Cheng

    --------------------------------muarks to all of you!!!-------------------------------

a flash back memory..

i guess many of you have heard of the movie "grease" or maybe even watched it on the tv!!! if you haven't... well you really should catch this show...

its much more of a mixed musical and romantic show. Some parts are really hilarious! its really a fabulous dance show... i like the way Danny (John Travolta) dance! his dance move was great... kinda wander if micheal jackson got his idea of 'unique' dance step from "grease"...

everything about GREASE is nice... i'm hoping to get the one which is the "saturday nights fever" i think it would be almost as good as "grease".

Sandy (Olivia) was hot when she decided to have a extreme make-over and it really spice up her look with that 50's shorts... (not really a short... its a 3.5 length) yeap... get to see her curvy bod.... SEXY!!!!

Danny (John Travolta) in the other hand is of course better looking than present!!! he is much slimmer then and man!!! the way he dance is like "WOW!!!" its no wonder those fans of him grew crazy and started dancing around him....

If you wanna know the theme song of the show, "GREASE", its by BEE GEES... song title is also called grease.... its a very poppy song.. should listen to it if you are free.....

              that's all people....!!! gotta run...the stupid 2.4km tml!!!YUCK!!!

                                                                               purely hate P.E

                                                                               Cheryl (cher)

(p.s if cheryln, claire or anybody who is in the dancing group with us, reading this... i might choose this song for the dancing in emerge lah!!! "GREASE" by BEE GEES!!! ((x thank you!!!) 

a new member in my family...

yipee....

i got this new guinea pig from my friend ,SHARNA!!! thanks gal...

i will take care of lao da de!!! anyways his name is DEMITRI and is nick is FLUFFY BALL!!! born on 25/3/05' so cute!!! combi of brown and white.... love him so much.....

he is very scared of the kids in the neighbourhood lah.... always da bian or xiao bian.... ewww....! gross!!!! and i have to clean it... but i xi guan le!!!! lol....

anyway.... i love him and do include him as my bebe...! muarkx to dimitri....

                                                                   Slurpie kisses....

                                                                             Cheryl Cheng

                                                                               19/04/2005'